They smiled at me, snicker and laughing at me, it's painful and I wanted to give up. But then;

It's both surreal and inspiring that once you forward motion, good things start to happen and usually from unexpected directions. For the record, there were plenty of disappointment, inconvenient disasters along the way, but you steam ahead anyway. You will do that when you have no other choice but to accept the journey as it is. 

This was happening to me many times as I go the through my life as a trader. It's not always rosy and nice, sometimes it's painful, very painful that I wanted to break up. But I don't think giving up should be your primary method for dealing with a life of a trader. There are certainly a lot of cases where it just seems to be the most intelligent answer. The more I stop to force things to happen, the more they just seem to sort themselves out. 

Attempting to create things happen all the time cause a lot of unnecessary anxiety. It's stressful trying to deny it is. When the chips are stacked against me, and more often than not, it seems like I don't even have a clue. It's always a mystery to me. 

In order to reach the highest, you have to begin at the lowest. If your life feels hard, and you're not alone. If it's painful, exhausting and more challenging than you want it to be, just remind yourself,  that you're not alone. We are all in this thing together as a trader's lifestyle. We are all going through our own stuff. And no matter how big or small, what we are going through is, it can seem like a big deal to us. 

But when I return to my moment, I realized that very little of it is a big deal after all. 

Almost all struggles and mistakes contain important lessons for me to learn. If I suck at staying in the moment, I will tell myself, it will go through. I will do the difficult things while they are easy. I know who I am and I know what I want.

And if your life is a mess right now, don't sweat it. Seriously, all of our lives are a mess.Things will get worse before being better, and then worse and then better, it's just how it goes, naturally. 

And what about the wealthy, the gurus, millionaires, success coaches and the ones who make it looks so easy? Trust me, their lives are a mess too. I know a bunch of corporate figures, gurus, millionaires, so called CEO s of some sucking corporate peoples, truth to be told, they're some of the most fucked up people you ever want to meet in your life.

The more interesting your life is, the more chaotic things are going to get. Even when life gets rough, there's always a ton of stuff to be happy about. Plus, this whole life deal is going to end at some point anyway, so might as well enjoy the ride while we are at it. It's all temporary. 

You are blessed, that the shit you're going through is making you wiser, tougher and stronger. You can always use the knowledge and experience to help others. 

As I always mentioned, I wouldn't trade all the pain and loss I have experienced for anything. I wouldn't trade it, because of all I have learned, how much it make me grow, how much it moulded me into the person I am today... allowing me to share my experience, as well as what works for me and what doesn't. 

In fact, the most interesting people , those who do the most incredible things, help the most people, have the most impact, and are the happiest, are the way they are, because of the hell they once endured. 

What we go through can kill us or it can be our greatest gift. It can forge us into the person we want to become. The choice is ours. I always remind myself, everyday life is a battle. A battle with ourselves, our egos, our self-esteem, our negative thoughts and inner pussies.

We can either lay down and die or charge forward like a soldier. 

Embrace the mystery of life, give up the illusion of control, endure the pain, love every minute of your life, even when it hurts, miserable, depressing. Get tough and move forward. 

A Trader 's livelihood. Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.

It's a direction.