Yesterday was quite a bad day for me ... in the morning, it rains. This morning it pours ... it is pouring outside.  Well, if you are riding a bike to office, you wont enjoy the pours, ok? If it is my normal day, I may be able to embrace the rain ... and seeing rainbows after the rain.



I could not at the moment ... it was a bad day yesterday. Not the rain ... not the trades(in fact, the stock-watch I gave yesterday, someone benefitted from CMMT. He bought 1.60, sold before closing at 1.71. I missed the show!). Trades? My SKPetrol breaking new high, to 2.50 levels now. Still holding to her ... trades? My GenM dropped a few cents. Trades? I am too busy to trade ...

It is the facebook's chat-box went missing and we could not have our normal chat. I do not know why, I do not know how to place it back.

Then, it is my office e-mail, sending me a 'warning' that I must complete some paperwork ... sigh ... dragging myself to complete it today, tho I know I wont do a good job. The stress is tremendous when we are doing something we dont like and our weakness exposed.

I have not be able to settle the electricity issue with the wireman ... and it tripped again. Sigh.

Even my zipper gave way yesterday, and I have to cover the 'holes'. Hmmm ...

The signals were there ... I m going through the pace ... rushing into many things, trying to cope. Coping could be stressful ... and being not-so-organised person, I even lost my jacket(tho it is cheap RM20) and lost my Ipad VGA-adapter(costing me RM90. ouch). Yes ... coping ... and struggling to find the time ... time for family ...

With me being too busy with many things coming almost at the same time, I m drown. My wife complaining that I do not spend enough time with family and I do not have time to have proper meals. Yeah ... I wish to slow down and pause ... she is still wondering how I could find the TIME to blog?!

This is the only space for my words to be 'out'. It is my personal dairy, though I have managed to pull-out many of my personals views(such as in politics) and making it a little more relevent. Till I move to my new site ... this will still remain my 'dairy'. I have my up and downs, I write the whole year through ... I have many good trades done and shared with my tratles or stock-watch groups. Yet, I do have my bad trades and mistakes shown openly too. It is stressful ... so, the blog serves to be my outlet of my emotions. I know I need to be strong ... and remain alert, as my groups growing larger. I may need to focus fully in stock-markets and do what I like most now... teaching trading!!

Seriously, I am in 'transition' period ... for me to continue to write this blog, and be more so-called professional ... I need to generate some income from writing, for the time I am using here. I dont know ... the google-adsense no longer giving me much ... either.  The only way I could think of is ... to have a 'private' blog(subscription based) and focus my writings and learning there.  I do have a closed blog for my e-tratles which I tried to maintain. I am really fully occupied ...

When it rains ... it pours. That was how I felt last night and I could not sleep well. All I do know is I need to do what is needed and maintain my pace. I need to let go of those I feel will not benefit me(like this blog or writing in forums?). I need to help myself before I could help others again ... the law of attraction ... we attract dark-clouds ... and it rains, obviously.

Taking a break from blogging till Sunday ... as I have to prepare for our tratles meeting this Friday and stock-analysis class this Saturday. Hope I could see some sunshine by end of today ... and my tratles always are people who support and give me some cheers!! Haha ...

Pause.

TEH